I can't believe it has been so long since I've posted...and that Christmas and New Year's have come and gone. I had my last appointment on Dec 20, and had 100 cc of saline added to each of my expanders... which now makes a total of 325 on each side. Each one holds a total of 500, but can be expanded past that to 600. I'm seriously wondering what bra size I would be, if I just stopped at this point. I am so over them! They are so uncomfortable, and the only way I can describe how it feels, is to say that it is like have a hardish plastic,stiff underwire bra, or a boned bustier under your skin. Yea, not confortable! I have another appointment coming up on the 10th for the next expansion...so I am going to ask about stopping at this point.
Otherwise, the physical healing has gone well, and Ithink I am mentally ready to move on to the next phase, and hopefully to try to get back to feeling somewhat "normal" again. I wonder if that really ever happens after cancer?
Natalie,
My thoughts and prayers are with you along this journey. Cancer changes you that is for sure and I don't know if you ever go back to "normal" in the way you once knew it.
I myself have never had cancer but I walked the journey with my mom. She never went through the reconstruction process and I watched her struggle with her self image. It made me sad because not only was she a pretty lady from her physical appearance but she was a pretty lady on the inside too. I wished that she could have seen herself in that way.
My wish for you is that you don't let this situation get you down for too long. Do what you need to do to get yourself feeling better and enjoy your life!
Cancer or not, life is simply too short not to enjoy it. Plus, I saw the circle of friends you had around you at Silver Bella and you obviously have a big circle of girlfriends that love you and support you - not to mention your family.
I hope you find strength, grace, peace and happiness.
Hugs,
Lisa
Posted by: Lisa | 01/05/2011 at 03:33 PM